I actually really have no reason to get out of bed except for myself. Scary and independent but I guess I gotta move forward.
I miss a lot of people. A lot.
All of my friends are asleep.
Time for me to decipher a laundry machine manual.
It’s almost the 28th! But America is like 14 hours behind so it won’t be here until much later. :(
I didn’t think it was possible to feel more alone after talking to more people that I’ve talked to my entire time here combined. Today was graduation for the IPADS students. I went to the graduation party to meet new people and get to know my new classmates.
I tell myself the things that I’m sure that you all are wanting to tell me. I tell myself that I need to give these new people time to become close to me or to open up. Once classes start then I’ll meet everyone and all will be great. I’m sure that I’ll find people that I love somewhere. Even if I don’t, I can go to clubs and do things where I can meet more people. I may be lonely, but I’m not alone.
But I felt this sudden pang of homesickness. It was sad but nice to know that I could feel homesick and I could miss Beth and my friends. I could miss people that I could throw pointed words and recieve a smile and a equally pointed come back. I miss people that I can hug. I think that is what I miss the most.
I met someone today that I wish I was like. She was bold, but not abrasive. She seemed quick and respectable. She was honest. She was adventurous and while heeding the words of people she respected, she did her own thing.
Pieces of Advice that people gave to me:
This journey you have in like driving a car with a foggy window. The entire window is fogged up and you can’t clearly see through it. The only thing you can see is your rearview mirror. Don’t let that scare you. You can see out to the sides and see the people driving next to you. You must take the steering wheel of your car now. No one will drive it for you.
Combine two different concentrations and you will be the master in your field.
“I met him. He was an electrical engineer in the building.”
Oh god this just became 100x more meaningful and now I’m crying.
"are you princess Amalya?" "yes… you’re taller than I expected" "and you are just like every other princess I’ve saved, never impressed unless they see the tail" - Rocket Raccoon #001